Friday, May 27, 2016

Fervent Friday: Purity

Well this is awkward. 

But we are going to push through.

Thankfully, purity isn’t a huge problem for me, but I would being lying if said it wasn’t a problem at all. Of course I am human and there are some things that are tempting. Some things or actions or thoughts that are just so pretty or shiny or comfortable. Wouldn’t giving into them making me feel pretty or shiny or comfortable?  Wouldn’t it feel good?

Actually, just the opposite. Giving in to temptations always leaves me feeling not good. Icky. And even worse, it weakens my relationship with God, because more than likely I was doing something He didn’t want me to do. He knew it. I knew it. He knew that I knew it and that leaves things, well, awkward. 

There was a time in my life when I felt like I was being tempted a lot. And giving in a lot. So, I decided to go through a temptation type detox where I cut myself off from many sources of temptation. I completely stopped watching movies, TV shows,  listening to secular music, or even reading certain books. I cannot tell you how much that helped me. I stopped hearing and seeing and reading our culture’s definition of love and life and slowly understood God's. Not only did I lose that “icky” feeling, I also found a new self worth. 

Here is an example of a prayer I wrote on purity:

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(P): God, thank you so much for loving me just the way I am. Thank you for making me, well, me.

(R): Forgive me for not staying completely pure, for letting Satan take up residence in parts of my life and separating me from you. 

(A): God, please show me these areas. I know some of them aren’t so obvious. Help me to walk in the spirt and not the flesh. Keep me pure so I can be closer to you.

(Y): My faith and heart may fail, but God you are the strength of my heart, my portion forever.*

Amen. 

*Paraphrase of Psalms 73:26

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Week 6: Fear

Week 5: Past

Week 4: Family

Week 3: Identity

Week 2: Focus

Week 1: Passion

Fervent Friday Intro

Thursday, May 26, 2016

Thankful

Hey there! This week I am thankful for:

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Day 1

  • Having so many things to be thankful for. 
  • A (seemingly never ending) project at work is over!
  • This song. I don’t really listen to secular music, but after enough bloggers linked to it I had to check it out and I am now hooked. We have daily dance parties at our house. 

Day 2

  • Always having someone to watch the girls. Today Dan’s grandma and cousin watched them and they came home happy and played out.
  • Ina was able to simmer a toy meltdown, well, down. We went to Aldi after she hadn’t had a nap and for the first time was very upset when we walked by the toys and I told her those were for birthdays. She started crying, but after me telling her we were going to leave and go to the car if she didn’t stop, she eventually did. Whew, I really didn’t want to follow through on that one because I was hungry and we needed groceries. 
  • Early bedtimes.

Day 3

  • Summer food. 
  • Taking my cardio video outside while the rest of the house is still sleeping.
  • Seeing Ina actually play with other kids her age. She typically is a loner or plays with older kids, but this is improving. 

Day 4

  • The other parents at park birthday parties. It is almost like we play zone defense. 
  • Homemade ice cream.
  • Morning walks.

Day 5

  • Starting Phase 2 of JM Body Revolution. Omph. Even washing my hair hurt. 
  • How much easier it is to get dressed with a capsule. I have had a few hiccups and made a few returns, but overall I am liking it.
  • Temporary marker dinosaur tattoos. 

Day 6

  • Ina tried salmon and liked it! We are working on making her less picky and when I told her we were having salmon she asked if it was “salmon toast crunch.” Hmmmm….
  • Quick meals that allow me time to play with the girls outside. I spend quite a bit of time with them, but we don’t “play” as much as I would like. 
  • I had an opportunity to actually meet a client face to face at work, which is the first time in almost 6 years. 

Day 7

  • Ina graduated swim lessons! She is now in advanced aqua tots. 
  • I survived my first podcast. I was interviewed by His and Her Money about becoming debt free, and although I had some blubbering moments and sweat like I just finished running 3 miles, I think it went well. 
  • Our boat started! And then it didn’t. BUT, Dan thinks he knows what is wrong and is confident we will be on the lake sometime this summer.

What are you thankful for? 

Monday, May 23, 2016

My Food and Fitness Plan (5/24)

Hello!

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Whew, what a weekend! Friday was actually pretty chill - grocery shopping and pizza for dinner. However, on Saturday the ball started rolling and it just didn’t stop. 

I worked while Dan and the girls ran some errands, then we went to our first (of three) birthday parties. Miss Paisley turned one!

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After being home long enough for both girls to refuse a nap, we packed back up and went to eat dinner with our friends The Nybergs. 

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Silo and Ina are 8 months apart,

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and Edie and Cora are 2 weeks apart. Oh the trouble those two are going to get into!

After a delicious dinner (I feel like there is something remarkable about my first ear of corn of the summer), Cora and I went home to crash while Ina and Dan went on a movie date.

Sunday was breakfast, church, and then our friend Avery’s birthday party at the park, and then Dan’s step-brother’s birthday party. 

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I crawled into bed and crashed as soon as my head hit the pillow.

Here is my plan for the week:

Food:

Fitness: Jillian Michaels Body Revolution Phase 2 Week 1. Excited to start a new phase but also so nervous for sore(er) muscles

Thursday, May 19, 2016

Thankful

This week I was thankful for: 

Day 1

  • Baby ponytails 
  • Ten minute park dates. The perfect amount of time, really.
  • My grandma had a successful knee replacement surgery!

Day 2

  • Our lawn mower being fixed. Again. With a lawn mower that is older than I am, this point is on repeat.
  • Dinner with friends that include grilled steaks and ice cream. Always a win.
  • Family who love you enough to have the hard conversations. And even after the hard conversations, still love you.

Day 3

  • Catching up with old friends without kids. 
  • At home date night. 
  • Starting and finishing a movie in one sitting, 

Day 4

  • A new dishwasher that is installed and working like a gem.
  • Some free time to food prep and make some more kombucha. I tried a new flavor - cranberry jalapeƱo. Super delicious. 
  • My grandparents are in the same room in the rehab center! They have been apart for a long time, so I am happy about them being reunited. 

Day 5

  • Vacation planning. It is so fun to have something like that to look forward to.
  • How Dan remains calm when I freak out over things, like the possibility of Ina going blind when in reality she just had a bug bite. If it was up to me we would have headed straight to the ER, but he decided that going out to eat with friends for dinner was the better option. 
  • A full night’s sleep. Waking up to the birds chirping.

Day 6

  • Benadryl. Amoxicillin. Claritin. Albuterol. Ibuprofen. Having both kids sick feels like I run a pharmacy. I am glad my education can be used for something.
  • Watching the girls play with toys together. Cora is mostly fine with Ina taking what she is playing with as long as it is replaced with something else, so I am going to enjoy this peace as long as it lasts. 
  • Sunshine after the rain.  

Day 7

  • Excel spreadsheets and how they are so smart and organized and put my life in order.
  • Fresh herbs. In my garden. In my water. In my food. In my soap. 
  • Ina holding her head under water for 8 seconds at swim lessons!!! (Although I should add that this convinced Dan and I to fork over the money for summer lessons so that she keeps up with this progress. Perfect timing.)

What are you thankful for? 

Have a great day!

<3

Wednesday, May 18, 2016

Since I Talked to You Last...

Hey there!

Since I talked to you last:

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- Ina went to the lake with some of her aunts and cousins

She played her heart out for 24 hours. While she was gone we missed her terribly but I checked so many things off my to-do list. Also, Dan and I watched TWO movies with real live people in them- Mad Max Fury Road (so, so, so creepy) and The Martian (so, so, so good). 

- We went out to eat with some friends on Monday night for $5 burgers and great company.

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- Ina’s eyelid swelled up over her eye and I was convinced she was going blind and almost took her to the ER. Good thing I didn’t, because it ended up being a bug bite and after a few doses of Benadryl it is almost back to normal.

-Cora has an (another!) ear infection. 

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(Do you have SnapChat yet? Username: rachealkendrick)

Yesterday was a weird combo of work, doctor’s appointments, extra coffee, The Disney Channel, and drugging my children.

-I made this soup with turkey sausage. Incredibly fresh and delicious. I would have never guessed that arugula tastes good in soup.

- In a matter of 24 hours Cora has gone from sort of crawling but staying in one general area to full out crawling and going to every room in the house. The only way we knew where she was last night was from her grunting as she explored her territory. She also pulls herself up on everything which has led to a few unfortunate spills. She still isn’t putting anything in her mouth which is unfortunate for her eating skills, but good for safety. 

- Dan and I’s new life goal is to become friends with Chip and JoAnna Gaines. 

I hope you have a good Wednesday! 

<3

Sunday, May 15, 2016

My Food and Fitness Plan (5/15)

Good Sunday Morning to you.

I just typed that date and cannot believe we are already half way through May. Wasn’t it just May 1st? Where have the last two weeks gone? 

This weekend has been great so far. Friday night we had friends over for dinner. I worked Saturday morning and then met my pharmacy school friends for happy hour. I was home just in time to put Cora to bed and watch a movie with Dan. 

But the most exciting part of all is that Dan and Ina went to the scratch and dent place and brought home a brand new (albeit dented) dishwasher. This was long overdue, as our old dishwasher leaked water, made loud noises, and didn’t really wash dishes. Hopefully we will finish installing it today and I can reclaim my kitchen.

Here is my plan for the week:

Food:

Also doing a little bit of lunch prepping and making these

Fitness: JM’s Body Revolution Phase 1 Week 4. This is my last week of Phase 1 and I am equally sad and excited about it. Sad that the “easy” part is over and excited for a little bit of a challenge. 

I hope you have a lovely Sunday and a blessed week ahead! 

<3

Friday, May 13, 2016

Fervent Friday: Fear

This book. You guys, you really need to read it. Life changing, I’m telling you. I could write a summary of the chapter on fear, but really you need to read it for yourself. 

The big picture is that the feeling of fear is not from God. There are 300 times in scripture where God tells us not to fear. If fear isn’t from God, it must be from Satan. So, when we feel fearful about something, and of course we will, it must be satan working to steer us on a different path.

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After discussing the chapter on fear with our small group, one of my friends asked us, “What’s your biggest fear?"

I immediately answered, “something bad happening to Ina or Cora.” But then I felt I needed to give more details. Since Ina was born, I have been having these flashes or thoughts of bad things happening to her. She would be sitting in her chair and I would “see” her fall out and hit her head. She would be sleeping in her crib and all of a sudden I would “see” her blanket over her mouth, blocking her airway.

Now with a baby and a toddler it is crazy worse. We’re going to the lake? A boating injury pops in my head. Dan’s mowing the yard? I see that accident play out every time. And if one more of my friends posts an article about a parent accidentally leaving their kid in a hot car on Facebook I just might have a panic attack. 

Sometimes I can dismiss the thought, but other times it haunts me for weeks. It paralyzes me and plays over and over again in my head. I mostly chalked these feelings up to postpartum/nursing hormones. Never once did I think about them being fearful feelings created by the enemy. Once I started thinking about it, I realized that some decisions I made about parenting my girls were fear based. Not all, but more than I would like to admit. In fact, I was just telling my sister last night that I was going to put Ina and Cora in a bubble until they are 18 after hearing a horrible story about a senior trip accident. 

Obviously a bubble isn’t the answer. I don’t want fear to force me to stop them from living their lives. To stop them from shining their lights. 

So, I will pray. Here is an example of a prayer on fear: 

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(P): God, thank you for this amazing life you have blessed me with. Help me use these blessing to glorify you.

(R): Forgive me for giving into fear. I know you did not create me to let fear rule my life. 

(A): Show me where fear is limiting me and what I can do to push it out of my way. Stop me from making fear based decisions. Help me to block Satan’s voice scaring me away from something and instead let me hear your still small voice. Make me listen.

(Y): I know you have plans for me. Plans for welfare and not for calamity to give me a future and a hope.*

Thank you for the example I have for this in Jesus.

Amen.

*Paraphrase Jer 29:11

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Week 5: Past

Week 4: Family

Week 3: Identity

Week 2: Focus

Week 1: Passion

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