Hello there and Happy Saturday!
For the first time in weeks I plan to put on jeans, wear shoes other than my fur lined Crocs, and go out in public for Ina's basketball game. It's going to be a great day!
At the beginning of the week I was feeling pretty down/anxious/sad for no one particular reason other than we are in the middle of a winter pandemic with my newsfeed blowing up with so much fear and anger and I continue to feel inadequate/question myself at work and my girls won't stop fighting with each other and I want to chainsaw the part of the recliner Dan's feet are propped up on and I just want to go to bed.
OK...maybe I did have a reason.
That isn't the point.
The point is that on the second day of this I decided I didn't want to feel like this anymore. I was focusing on negative things way too much and letting them steal my joy. Of course life isn't perfect, but I want to choose to be joyful while experiencing those imperfections and frustrations. Here is what I did:
- I asked Jesus for help fighting these toxic thoughts/feelings that I firmly believe are spiritual warfare. I remind myself that the battle is already won.
- I made a 15 minute mid-day walk in the sunshine a high priority, even when it was raining - see above. Ha!
- When I started thinking something negative, I re-framed it in a positive/thankful way. Example: I changed "I have no idea what I am doing at work. All of the senior scientists know way more than me" to "I am so blessed to be surrounded by such wonderful scientific mentors who are willing to spend time to teach me what I need to succeed in my career."
- I reminded myself that I have so many things to be thankful for and said those things out/loud in my head. For example, when the girls were fighting I would look at their beautiful bodies and say, "I am so thankful that my girls are healthy."
- I stopped looking at social med...just kidding...this train wreck of a week has continued to suck me in.