This book. You guys, you really need to read it. Life changing, I’m telling you. I could write a summary of the chapter on fear, but really you need to read it for yourself.
The big picture is that the feeling of fear is not from God. There are 300 times in scripture where God tells us not to fear. If fear isn’t from God, it must be from Satan. So, when we feel fearful about something, and of course we will, it must be satan working to steer us on a different path.
After discussing the chapter on fear with our small group, one of my friends asked us, “What’s your biggest fear?"
I immediately answered, “something bad happening to Ina or Cora.” But then I felt I needed to give more details. Since Ina was born, I have been having these flashes or thoughts of bad things happening to her. She would be sitting in her chair and I would “see” her fall out and hit her head. She would be sleeping in her crib and all of a sudden I would “see” her blanket over her mouth, blocking her airway.
Now with a baby and a toddler it is crazy worse. We’re going to the lake? A boating injury pops in my head. Dan’s mowing the yard? I see that accident play out every time. And if one more of my friends posts an article about a parent accidentally leaving their kid in a hot car on Facebook I just might have a panic attack.
Sometimes I can dismiss the thought, but other times it haunts me for weeks. It paralyzes me and plays over and over again in my head. I mostly chalked these feelings up to postpartum/nursing hormones. Never once did I think about them being fearful feelings created by the enemy. Once I started thinking about it, I realized that some decisions I made about parenting my girls were fear based. Not all, but more than I would like to admit. In fact, I was just telling my sister last night that I was going to put Ina and Cora in a bubble until they are 18 after hearing a horrible story about a senior trip accident.
Obviously a bubble isn’t the answer. I don’t want fear to force me to stop them from living their lives. To stop them from shining their lights.
So, I will pray. Here is an example of a prayer on fear:
(P): God, thank you for this amazing life you have blessed me with. Help me use these blessing to glorify you.
(R): Forgive me for giving into fear. I know you did not create me to let fear rule my life.
(A): Show me where fear is limiting me and what I can do to push it out of my way. Stop me from making fear based decisions. Help me to block Satan’s voice scaring me away from something and instead let me hear your still small voice. Make me listen.
(Y): I know you have plans for me. Plans for welfare and not for calamity to give me a future and a hope.*
Thank you for the example I have for this in Jesus.
*Paraphrase Jer 29:11