Hello and Happy Friday!
I am back at it today talking about Fervent, a book guiding women in prayer. This week’s topic is identity, which is huge. I could write about my struggles with my identity and their crippling effects for days, not to mention the struggles I see in the women I love. It is obviously an incredibly vulnerable part of my life, of our lives.
I have done a lot of work in this area and have made improvements, but some days Satan still gets the best of me. I think about something I said to Ina and before I know it I am doubting my abilities as a mother. I make a mistake at work and I instantly think I am a failure of a scientist. I write a post about prayer on a running blog and worry no one will like me...
But, I shouldn’t.
I shouldn’t because I am a masterpieces. I was planned before creation, before time began. I have a God that loves me.
So do you.
Furthermore, when I give into my insecurities and believe the nonsense that Satan is feeding me I am dimming the light that God created me to be. He created me to be a mom, daughter, wife, sister, friend, scientist, blogger, etc. and anytime I doubt my abilities I am hindering myself and Him. Asking God to use me in those areas has been something I have prayed about daily for years and will likely continue to do so.
Here is an example of my prayer on identity:
(P): God, thank you for this life you have created for me and the many blessings your surround me with daily. Help me to notice those gifts are from you.
(R): Forgive me for doubting myself, for listening to what the world has to say about me and believing it.
(A): Show me what you had in mind when you made me and what you created me to do. Give me the strength, courage, and confidence to be that Racheal, to live out the will you have for my life. Use me as a wife, as a mom, as a friend, as a family member, as a scientist, as a pharmacist, as a blogger, as a runner, etc. Use my hands, my feet, my actions, and my words. Show me and use me.
(Y): I know I am your workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which you prepared beforehand, so that I would walk with and in you.*
*paraphrase of Eph 2:10