Good morning! How was the beginning of the first week of the new year?
Ours was great - after work I came home and cooked dinner (Korean beef with brown rice and steamed broccoli) while Dan and Ina put together her new easel. (Side note: I made the brown rice in the pressure cooker with chicken broth instead of water and it was delicious!)
You know how there are moments when you fall even more in love with someone? Just when you think you can’t possibly love that person anymore, you are hit with an even deeper feeling. I know you know.
This has happened with Dan many times, but when Ina was born I didn’t think I could possibly love her anymore than I did those first few weeks. That love was stronger than anything I had ever felt before and it wasn’t from something that Ina did, because, let’s be honest, at the time all she did was sleep and eat. That intense feeling was from something in my DNA, something I couldn’t control, even animalistic?
So, of course, every time that strong feeling is trumped it surprises me so much. Like last night, how much I love this beautiful girl hit me like a ton a bricks.
Maybe it is because she is behaving slightly better than normal, saying, “no” less, and sitting at the dinner table long enough to eat with us. Or maybe it would have happened regardless of her behavior.
When she insisted that the letter “S” was a “Z”, when I watched her pig-tails flip through the air as she danced, and when she brought me over to Dan so we could have a family hug and she could squeeze both of us at the same time, I was overwhelmed with this feeling.
This intense feeling of being so blessed to have her in my life and to be one of the main people in her life. Closely following that strong feeling of love are the feelings of huge responsibility and vulnerability, both of which are scary.
Please forgive the sappiness, but I didn’t want to forget those moments, so of course, I put them in writing. Now on to something slightly less sappy.
I know I am a little late (like over a month), but I finally finished Ina’s second year book. I have a huge disclaimer here: I did not write the words in this book - Nancy Tillman did. However, I think it is one of the most beautiful children’s books and I had to “borrow” the words.
Now I just have to wait for Shutterfly to have a huge sale to actually order it.
Here is the link to Ina’s first year book, which was a little more creative on my part.
Have a good day!